Dear Beloved Community,
Pain, Empathy, and an Ever-Changing God
This week has been especially hard for me health-wise. Over the past four days,I have been in more pain than I can remember in a long time. My shoulder/scapular area has been screaming at me day and night. Â I cannot find a position that feels good. I have not been able to sleep well. I have been in bed pretty much all week. I have had to set aside things I wanted and needed to do because the pain will not let up. The doctor was of little help and prescribed physical therapy without caring about my pain management. I went to see a chiropractor andÂ
Pain has a way of narrowing life down to the bare essentials. When every movement hurts, your world gets smaller. I find myself measuring each action, asking if I can lift this or carry that, and sometimes choosing not to try. Very quickly it is not just my body that feels limited. My mind goes to the people I am not calling, the commitments I am not keeping, the tasks I am not finishing. I start to feel like I am letting people down. That can chip away at my sense of worth before I even realize it is happening.
I do not believe God gave me this pain. But I do believe God is here in it, not as a detached observer but as a God who responds to what is happening in my life. Pain can become a teacher, showing me that my value is not in what I produce or accomplish. It can slow me down enough to see that others live with pain far worse and far longer than I am experiencing, and that empathy grows best in the soil of shared human limitation.
Our theme this month is An Ever Changing God. Scripture tells the story of a God who is moved by what God sees, who shifts course, who changes in response to human need. This is not weakness; it is love in motion. God is not fixed in place but bends toward us in joy and in grief, in strength and in weakness.
This week has reminded me that life with God is not about performing at full capacity all the time. Sometimes our call is simply to receive, to let God come close, to let others care for us, and to let go of the illusion that we are indispensable. If God is ever changing in response to our lives, then I can trust that God is meeting me right here, in my limitations, with the same love and attention as in my most productive days. Pain may shrink the scope of what I can do, but it does not diminish who I am or how God sees me. And maybe that is the quiet gift hidden in all of this.
Blessings,
Pastor Brian